A Scraphappy Southernbelle

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

In This Skin

Happy Hump Day Yall! I hope you are having a great Wednesday! I have been bored out of my mind today. It is still so rainy and dreary up here. I need some sunshine. So I guess it has put me in a odd mood and I am scrapping a little different. I love to let out alot of my frustration through scrapping and that is what I have done today...so bear with me. I did this layout for 2 challenges. First, a challenge where you are suppose to do some scrappy therapy....meaning, you scrap something that bugs you and you want to get it off your chest. Second, for a challenge where you are to create your own patterned paper.

I created my own patterned paper by using this stamp. Here is my paper:

Now, this layout is called 'In This Skin.' I don't think many people know this about me, but I suffer from a skin condition called psoriasis. You have no idea how hard it is for me just to say that out loud, but it is. I have spent over 5 years suffering from this condition and stay covered up whenever I have a flair. I can't tell you how many hot, sunny days I've been in jeans and a long sleeved shirt because I am ashamed. But I am trying to do better. I am starting to put my story out there and get it off my chest. Thankfully, my psoriasis is only mild, but being a woman, it is still enough to make you really self conscious. But I am working on it. So I decided to get my frustration out. This will be another layout to go in the scrappy album that is just for me...almost a scrap diary. Here is the layout:

I journaled on a clear journaling tag and it reads:

"This photo is probably one of the last! It is when my skin was clear and beautiful. Then almost overnight it happened: psoriasis. Ugh! I even hate the word! It in itself sounds so disgusting! I spent years looking in the mirror and crying! Then one day, it hit me. This is who I am! You love me for who I am, not what I look like! I'm tired of covering up! Today, I will begin to put the pieces of me back together!"

Then around the tag that has the lady on it, I wrote: "I am lucky because this will make me stronger!!"

This next part really got me some criticism from the hubby. He said...'why did you tear up a perfectly good picture?' Well, I responded that I did not care what he thought. (LOL....I am really hard headed when it comes to my husband. I am a bit opinionated to say the least...ha ha). I tore it up for symbolism. I feel like this condition has taken 'pieces' of me away and by 'stapling' them back together, it symbolizes that I am going to make the effort to put those back together.

So there it is. Whoa! I feel like a weight has been lifted! Thank you for letting me share.
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12 comments:

michele said...

you are beautiful on the outside and the inside!

Jocelyn said...

Oh Aymee....what a great story to tell and how this skin disorder has effected you!!!! You made some bold statements and I am so glad that you could share this with us!!!! Happy Wednesday!!!

Carol said...

Aymee, the layout, like you, is beautiful!!! You did a great job with the journaling. I like the way you did the pic and put it back together. I love you just the way you are. You are still the same wonderful person. I love you very much:)

momma

Amy said...

I think you have created an amazing layout! Your story and your feelings really come through on the page. You are very talented.

Rose said...

I agree you are beautiful inside and out!! and if anyone only looks at the outside to decide if they want to like you then you are better off without them!!! that is one of my biggest complantes of mankind..... judging others by the outward apperiance and not seeing the inner beauty.

Kray said...

Aymee....I think this is one of my faves! You so caught the feeling. I do like the torn picture look you had as I understand what you were saying. I may have to scraplift this idea.

Got a few more cards done tonight. Have to do one more for this weekend, then I am going to work on my layout for JS

Steph said...

Aymee, I'm glad you were able to put this layout together to try to help yourself get back to being you. No matter what condition, or what anyone else says, you have to realize that you are a beautiful person, inside and out. The layout is fabulous and I can't wait to see what you'll come up with next! *hugs*

Tawnya said...

thank you for sharing. You really are beautiful! What a sweet page.

Melissa said...

Aymee your timming is perfect I struggle with my weight so much that some days I don't even want to go out. Maybe I'll make my own personal diary. Thanks for sharing We all hove a story.

TraceyT said...

I LOVE the symbolism of the page and TOTALLY GET it!! Beautiful work. LOVE it all.

Shirley said...

This is so powerful and love the torn photo!

scraphag said...

meemers you are just lovely...both inside and out.....